Pain

"Parade my trouble in front of you guys? Make you realize that my heart is broken . . . that as long as I live I'll have chains dragging me down to the oceans of sad tears that my feet are wet in already."

"It's like he has emotional amnesia... I think you have to accept that the person you knew isn't there at the moment. I was witness to how much he loved you. I have the photos. This isn't the person we knew. I don't recognize this person. He's shed his skin." Her heart is broken too. She has to say the thing that will give me back my life. She draws on every reserve. I see how much it hurts her and it hurts me too. I came from her joy and her pain, I lived in it and I live in it now."

"It's only a heartache. It isn't a tragedy. A tragedy would be losing the father of my children to cancer. This I wrestle with the hardest. There are thirty-one flavors of pain, like Baskin Robbins in hell. Am I allowed to feel pain at a breakup? When there is so much other shit going on in this world? Love is extremely serious. I don't think this is trivial."

"People don't know. We don't know ourselves so we tell ourselves what we really know is other people. We could say the depth of pain we feel for the lovers who've left us is because we knew them so well."

"Now that he's gone, I feel like I'm a senior citizen who gave away her life savings over the phone. And this is the crux: I never in my life believed in someone as much as I believed in him. The shame is overwhelming."

"I say, "Well then I don't know if it was real, and that makes me feel like I'm going insane again."Absolutely it was real. It was a real, partial picture. Because it ended preemptively, things you would have learned about him in the relationship, you are instead learning in the breakup. You have learned that he has a desperate desire for intimacy and then a desperate desire for the cave. He will get lonely there eventually and come back."To me"He doesn't pause. "To someone new."And I'll have to watch another girl"You will have to, but you will also know what lies ahead for that poor girl."

"They had lied, those who had extolled the virtues of love—its pleasures, its sublimity—those who had told her that it was beautiful and worthwhile. There was nothing beautiful abo"

"Nothing says hell has to be fire."

"Realize that the tests you endure will mold your character, persona, and will. The more heartbreak and pain you will feel with your trials in life, the greater your joy and glory will be once you've overcome. Not IF, not POSSIBLY, not MAYBE, but ONCE you have overcome."

"Say it."Don't do this to me..." I whispered painfully. "We can't do this again."You're a horrible liar," Eli growled as he pressed his fingers into my thighs. He watched me, his gaze all-consuming, and said, "Your eyes are as dark as a castle moat by midnight, mi cielo. Lower your drawbridge and let me cross; let me in."Eli, I-"Forget him. For the next hour and a half, you're going to do everything that makes you wonder in this world. And then I'm going to love you again."

"There was enough ice. So I thought. For my drink. When I used it all,I cut her heart out and used it instead. I never ran out of ice that night."

"I hate that I got dealt shitty parents! I hate how you make me feel like scum! I hate that you’re always running away from me! And I hate that I ever fucking gave you the power to destroy me!"

"And you left your mark on me... With the destruction of us, finally, we became no one."

"That's what it felt like - that if I let a little of the hurt out, it would keep pouring out until I was a deflated balloon of a person, with a big monster of hurt in front of me."

"Life is terribly awkward and uncomfortable, so we spend our time searching for those who make it all a little less unpleasant."

"A heart never breaks in the same pattern of pieces"

"We run through the remnants of our pain, and more importantly, we run for our present and for our future. Together we kick heartbreak's ass."

"I listened to the crashing thundering of a tiny tear tumbling like a wave down her beautiful face."

"there is no action kind enough to express heartbreak. I am left shut, the quietest of blossoms."

"I’m clenching my fists so tight my fingernails leave red crescent moons on my skin. I feel a surge, a heat roar up inside me. As bad as I’m hurting now, he’ll hurt ten times worse. That’s the only thing that keeps me going."