Lauren Oliver, Pandemonium
"I thought if I followed the rules, things would turn out all right. that's the thing about the cure, isn't it? It isn't just about deliria at all. It's about order. A path for everyone. You just have to follow it and everything will be okay. That's what the DFA is about. That's what I belevied in-what I've had to believe in. Because otherwise, it's just...chaos."
22 Quotes
"I thought if I followed the rules, things would turn out all right. that's the thing about the cure, isn't it? It isn't just about deliria at all. It's about order. A path for everyone. You just have to follow it and everything will be okay. That's what the DFA is about. That's what I belevied in-what I've had to believe in. Because otherwise, it's just...chaos."
"كنتُ أظن أن مجرد اتباعي للقواعد كفيلٌ بأن يجعل كل شيء على ما يرام. هذا هو بيت القصيد في العلاج، أليس كذلك؟ الأمر لا يتعلق بالهذيان وحده على الإطلاق. بل هو عن النظام. مسارٌ مرسومٌ لكل فرد. ما عليك سوى اتباعه، وسيكون كل شيء على ما يرام. هذا هو جوهر الـ DFA. هذا ما آمنتُ به – ما اضطررتُ للإيمان به. لأنه بخلاف ذلك، لن يكون هناك سوى... الفوضى."
Lauren Oliver, Pandemonium
"The DFA and organizations like it have pushed and squeezed and elbowed out all the feeling in the world. They have clamped their fists around a geyser to keep it from exploding. But the pressure eventually builds, and the explosion will always come."
"لقد دفعت منظمات مثل "وكالة الدفاع عن المستقبل" (DFA) وعصرت وأزاحت كل إحساس في العالم. لقد قبضت بقبضاتها حول نبع متفجر لتحول دون انفجاره. لكن الضغط يتراكم في النهاية، والانفجار سيأتي حتمًا."
Lauren Oliver, Pandemonium
"But I am terrified by what I want: for him, and worst of all, from him. Because I do want. I'm not even sure what, exactly, but the want is there, just like the hate and anger were there before. But this is not a tower. It is an endless, tunneling pit; it drives deep, and opens a hole inside me."
"لكنني مرعوبة مما أريد: له، والأسوأ من ذلك، منه. لأنني أريد حقًا. لست متأكدة حتى مما أريد بالضبط، لكن الرغبة موجودة، تمامًا كما كان الكره والغضب موجودين من قبل. لكن هذا ليس برجًا. إنه هوة لا نهاية لها، حفرة تتغلغل عميقًا، وتفتح فجوة في داخلي."
Lauren Oliver, Pandemonium
"When you're completely free, you're also completely on your own."
"متى ما صرت حرًا مطلقًا، كنت وحدك بلا معين."
Lauren Oliver, Pandemonium
"And suddenly I am blindingly angry at Raven--for her lectures, and her stubbornness, and for thinking that the way that you help people is by driving them against a wall, by beating them down until they fight back."
"وفجأةً، ينتابني غضبٌ أعمى من ريفن؛ على محاضراتها، وعنادها، وعلى ظنها أن مساعدة الناس لا تكون إلا بدفعهم إلى الحائط، وبسحقهم حتى ينهضوا للمقاومة."
Lauren Oliver, Pandemonium
"This is the mistake they make above. They think that only certain people habe a place. Only certain kinds of people belong. The rest is waste. But even waste must have a place. Otherwise it will clog and clot, and rot and fester."
"هذا هو الخطأ الذي يرتكبونه في الأعالي. يظنون أن أماكنهم محصورة على فئات معينة من الناس. أن الانتماء مقتصر على طوائف محددة. وما عدا ذلك فهو هدر. لكن حتى الهدر لا بد له من مكان. وإلا فإنه سيسد ويتحجر، ويتعفن ويتفسخ."
Lauren Oliver, Pandemonium
"But for now, the future, like the past, means nothing. For now, there is only a homestead built of trash and scraps, at the edge of a broken city, just beyond a towering city dump; and our arrival-hungry, and half-frozen, to a place of food and water and walls that keep out the brutal winds. This, for us, is heaven."
"أما الآن، فالمستقبل، شأنه شأن الماضي، لا يعني شيئًا. الآن، ليس هناك سوى منزل ريفي مبني من القمامة والخردة، على حافة مدينة محطمة، خلف مكب نفايات شاهق؛ ووصولنا – جائعين، ونصف متجمدين – إلى مكان فيه طعام وماء وجدران تحجب الرياح القاسية. هذا، بالنسبة لنا، هو الجنة."
Lauren Oliver, Pandemonium
"At least when I'm sleeping I can dream myself back to Alex, can dream myself into a different world."
"على الأقل، حين أنام، أستطيع أن أحلم بالعودة إلى الإسكندرية، أن أحلم بنفسي في عالم آخر."
Lauren Oliver, Pandemonium
"Running is a mental sport, more than anything else. You're only as good as your training, and your training is only as good as your thinking."
Lauren Oliver, Pandemonium
"Because I am terrified by what I want: for him, and worst of all, from him. Because I do want. I'm not even sure what, exactly, but the want is there, just like the hate and anger were there before. But this is not a tower. It is an endless, tunneling pit; it drives deep, and opens a hole inside me."
Lauren Oliver, Pandemonium
"Anger is useful only to a certain point. After that, it becomes rage, and rage will make you careless."
Lauren Oliver, Pandemonium
"I’ve been in the Wilds for a month and a half now, and in that time I’ve almost forgotten about the fences. It’s amazing how close I have been, all this time, to my old life. And yet the distance that divides me from it is vast."
Lauren Oliver, Pandemonium
"Grief is like sinking, like being buried. I am in water the tawny color of kicked-up dirt. Every breath is full of choking. There is nothing to hold on to, no sides, no way to claw myself up. There is nothing to do but let go. Let go. Feel the weight all around you, feel the squeezing of your lungs, the slow, low pressure. Let yourself go deeper. There is nothing but bottom. There is nothing but the taste of metal, and the echoes of old things, and days that look like darkness."
Lauren Oliver, Pandemonium
"Once you let in the word, once you allow it to take root, it will spread like a mold through all of your corners and dark spaces— and with it, the questions, the shivery, splintered fears, enough to keep you permanently awake."
Lauren Oliver, Pandemonium
"on the day that started it all, that rocketed me forward and landed me here, in this new body, in this new future."
Lauren Oliver, Pandemonium
"But for now, the future, like the past, means nothing."
Lauren Oliver, Pandemonium
"We are such small, stupid things. For most of my life I thought of nature as the stupid thing: Blind, animal, destructive. We, the humans, were clean and smart and in control: we had wrestled the rest of the world into submission, battered it down, pinned it to a glass slide and the pages of The Bool of Shhh."
Lauren Oliver, Pandemonium
"The hours here are flat and round, disks of gray layered one on top of the other...they move slowly, at a grind, until it seems as though they are not moving at all. They are just pressing down..."
Lauren Oliver, Pandemonium
"Sometimes I feel like if you just watch things, just sit still and let the world exist in front of you - sometimes I swear that just for a second time freezes and the world pauses in its tilt. Just for a second. And if you somehow found a way to live in that second, then you would live forever."
Lauren Oliver, Pandemonium
"It's amazing how close I have been, all this time, to my old life. And yet the distance that divides me from it is vast."
Lauren Oliver, Pandemonium
✉️
Get more quotes like Lauren Oliver, Pandemonium's — every morning.
Join thousands of wisdom seekers getting daily quotes from 300,000+ curated sources.
Free forever. No spam. Unsubscribe anytime.
🎉 Check your inbox to confirm your subscription!